Small things

Mark and I served as missionaries in Mexico City for many years.  One of my goals as a missionary was to never look like a missionary - no offense to my many missionary friends! But you know what I mean...  I grew up going to church and whenever missionaries would come to visit they were always dressed differently, a little out of style, long skirts and Ked's tennis shoes. I always thought it was kind of weird until I became a missionary, then I understood. Living outside the U.S.,  styles are different, shopping is not always readily available, and resources are limited. And honestly, priorities change and stylish clothing drops pretty far down the list. Nevertheless, it remained one of my goals not to look like a "missionary."

I have the same goal as a cancer patient - not to look like a sick person! I don't know how long it will last, but for now, that's the goal! I dress nicely to go to radiation and doctor's appointments. I am still exercising. I have been eating while I have an appetite to keep the weight on my body in case at some point I begin to lose weight. I try to get a full night's sleep. 

In spite of all that, the Sunday before last I felt horrible. I was so very tired. I thought to myself, if I look how I feel, then I look awful! Another zombie moment...  The funny thing was that everyone kept telling me how I looked beautiful that day. I thought they were just being kind to me.

Later, at home, I happened to glance at my face in the mirror and I was so surprised! No sleepy eyes, no dark circles, no pale cheeks! I didn't look how I was feeling! I looked like my normal self! And I smiled. I knew this was  a gift from God to me. Just a reminder that He was there, and He cared about me. He even cared about something as silly as my goal to not look like a sick person! God is good to me. Knowing His love is sweet.  

Thank you, God, that you care about the things I care about because you care about me. Thank you for your kindness toward me each day. You are an amazing, awesome, good, and kind God and I love you!

"My tongue will speak of your righteousness and of your praises all day long."  Psalm 35:28

"How priceless is your unfailing love."  Psalm 36:7