I have the same goal as a cancer patient - not to look like a sick person! I don't know how long it will last, but for now, that's the goal! I dress nicely to go to radiation and doctor's appointments. I am still exercising. I have been eating while I have an appetite to keep the weight on my body in case at some point I begin to lose weight. I try to get a full night's sleep.
In spite of all that, the Sunday before last I felt horrible. I was so very tired. I thought to myself, if I look how I feel, then I look awful! Another zombie moment... The funny thing was that everyone kept telling me how I looked beautiful that day. I thought they were just being kind to me.
Later, at home, I happened to glance at my face in the mirror and I was so surprised! No sleepy eyes, no dark circles, no pale cheeks! I didn't look how I was feeling! I looked like my normal self! And I smiled. I knew this was a gift from God to me. Just a reminder that He was there, and He cared about me. He even cared about something as silly as my goal to not look like a sick person! God is good to me. Knowing His love is sweet.
Thank you, God, that you care about the things I care about because you care about me. Thank you for your kindness toward me each day. You are an amazing, awesome, good, and kind God and I love you!
"My tongue will speak of your righteousness and of your praises all day long." Psalm 35:28
"How priceless is your unfailing love." Psalm 36:7