Timing: "the selecting of the best time or speed for doing something in order to achieve the desired or maximum result."
Thursday was not a good day for me. I woke up fighting. And I wasn't fighting cancer; I was fighting God.
I don't want to take this medicine. I don't want to rest. I don't want to have radiation. I don't want to be a sick person. I don't want to have surgery. I don't want to feel fatigued. I don't want to...
I cried a lot of tears on Thursday. They came easily, and unwanted.
At the end of the day the doorbell rang. It was Lynn, from our church, bringing dinner. I had forgotten she was coming. After putting all the food on the counter she handed me a gift bag and quickly left. I walked back inside and looked at the bag. This is what it said, "...put my tears in thy bottle. Psalm 56:8"
God knew exactly what I needed and He knew exactly when I needed it. Why do I so easily forget?
"You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book." Psalm 56:8
"He has made everything beautiful in its time." Ecclesiastes 3:11
God's timing was perfect this day. It will be perfect every day of my life. Lord, help me to remember.
We had one of those same nights last night! WE understand!
ReplyDeleteSoon, our mourning will be turned into dancing!!
Laura, we love you and Mark so much. I wish we could reach out to you and hug you...no words, just an embrace of our love to you. Know that we do embrace you in our hearts each and every day, longing to transfer your hurts, fears, and exhaustion to us.
ReplyDeleteThe most encouragement ever is when God touches our daily lives, intervenes in our tears... reaches out through others, such as Lynn, to let us know He sees us, hears us and knows what is going on.
ReplyDeleteNot everyone experiences such intimate contact and reassurance from God... some people never feel that hope from His hands...nor experience that daily injection of hope that He is near and sees them.
Sometimes we can't understand the 'why' but you can be assured that He has you and He loves you so much. This cross is heavy that you carry. Its a burden. You hate it. But its only for a time. Its only for a season and this will pass and as you quote in Ecc. 3:11... "He has made everything beautiful in its time. "
I'm crying with YOU Laura and then the LORD can as you say; put both our tears in thy bottle. Psalm 56:8. THANKS Lynn!
ReplyDeleteI need to find me a bottle though.Ha!
I and so many people love you Laura, please ALWAYS be grateful you have the LORD and so many people that love you and such a wonderful family and friends.
I pray this week is a better week for both of us. Lets soar like an EAGLE together,O.K?
xoxo Linda