Monday, May 24, 2010

Strange and Wonderful

I go to the gym today for the first time in a year. It feels strange and wonderful to actually be out in the world doing things that normal people do instead of sitting in hospital and doctor waiting rooms.  

Strange because it feels like I've been gone for a long time and the world went on without me! Strange because I don't have an answer for people who don't know where I've been this past year and innocently say to me, "I haven't seen you here in a while." 

Wonderful because I feel like I am finally emerging from a fog! Wonderful because I am alive! Wonderful because I am healthy. 

I actually do a Step class at the gym, followed by a little bit of weight lifting and yoga. As I sit on the weight bench testing my long dormant muscles, I marvel at the fact that I am there and I am healthy. I watch all the people exercising and wonder if any of them have cancer. I hope they are aware of the blessing of their health. 

I'm sure I will be sore tomorrow; but as I crawl out of bed in the morning and feel the ache of my muscles, I will praise God for every twinge, for He has been good to me and I know it!

"Long life to you! Good health to you and your household! And good health to all that is yours!" 1 Samuel 25:6

1 comment:

  1. I wish I had the book right here in front of me but I'm too lazy to go upstairs and get it...its the book "Tramp for the Lord" by Corrie Ten Boom and she sais that people who face death have so much more profound appreciation for everything once they have passed through those waters.... she describes eating 'normal' people food and bathing etc... how unbelievably amazing and wonderful the basics of life were because she was alive to do them. I try to be grateful for everything but I know that there is no amount of comparison to the gratefulness you can feel until its so close to being gone or gone and then found.
    You have an amazing new lease on life, not only because you are'back' but because you see things so much differently than most of us can even imagine to be able to see. Corrie often would say 'it was worth it'.... it was obviously a nightmare, but worth it....worth every little bit.
    Love and Hugs!!! Can't wait to hear about details to CR!