That is the sound of me screaming because my platelets are STILL too low to receive chemotherapy.
This is a picture of me pulling my hair out because I am so tired of waiting!
My platelets only came up from 71 to 75 over the course of the last week. I was so frustrated this morning. Not only because I am so ready to be finished with all of this, but also because this was just another reminder of how sick I have been. The problem is that my bone marrow has been so wiped out by radiation and all the chemotherapy drugs that it is having trouble keeping up with blood cell production. Healthy people don't have this problem. Only sick people. And I don't want to be reminded that I am still fighting a deadly disease! Thus, the picture above!
Even my nurse was frustrated for me today. So frustrated that she cussed for me! LOL! She said that she knew I wouldn't, so she was doing it for me! Love you Vickie!
So, we are back to waiting... again.
I know that God is doing what is best for me, but I am not a very good "waiter". I guess He knows this; and apparently it is a skill that He really wants me to learn!
"We WAIT in hope for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name." Psalm 33:20-21
"The Lord is my portion; therefore I will WAIT for him. The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to WAIT quietly for the salvation of the Lord." Lamentations 3:24-26
"O Lord, You are my God; I will exalt You, I will give thanks to Your name; for You have worked wonders, plans formed long ago, with perfect faithfulness... And it will be said in that day, 'Behold, this is our God for whom we have WAITED that He might save us. This the Lord for whom we have WAITED; let us rejoice and be glad in His salvation." Isaiah 25:1 & 9