I had an appointment with the oncologist today. It had been three months since my last visit. As I drove to his office today I realized that I wasn't nervous or worried at all. I fully expected all the reports to be good today.
It was strange to walk into the building. It brought back so many memories, not all pleasant, and it was great to walk in feeling good! I saw some of my "chemo friends" today - still coming to the office for regular chemotherapy treatments, still experiencing uncomfortable side effects, still fighting for one more day of life. How thankful I am that those days are behind me! I am reminded to pray for these sweet friends daily.
The doctor reviewed all my lab work and test results, performed a physical exam, and then declared that everything is NORMAL!! I'm normal! He said that he will order a another PET scan for September to make sure that I am still disease-free.
As I left his office and started the drive home I began to think about the PET scan planned for September, and the fact that we won't know if there has been any recurrence until that time. Suddenly, the fear monster reared his head and threatened to take over... I started doing deep breathing exercises, telling myself the truth. As I did so, I heard God whisper to my heart, "I got this." Immediately the fear disappeared and a huge smile spread across my face! My God has this under control! The almighty, all-knowing, all-loving, faithful creator of all things has me in his hands!
I felt like shouting all the way home! I'm pretty sure my feet never touched the ground for the rest of the day!