I had trouble falling asleep Wednesday night. I was very stressed. I woke up Thursday morning with my head hurting, my back aching, my port site aching, and I was nauseous. I wished I could just skip this day. I don't want to live it. Unfortunately I have to get up and go get more chemotherapy. I don't want to do this. I am totally spent physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. I cried most of the day. The tears wouldn't stop. I was sick at my stomach most of the day. I have no appetite and yet I know it is important for me to eat.
We got in the car to come home from the oncologist's office and Jeremy Camp's song was on the radio:
"I will walk by faith, even when I cannot see."
That's what we're doing, walking by faith. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.