Last night, after a good cry upstairs in my girls' rooms, grieving the fact that they no longer live at home, I crawled into bed at 11:30 p.m. thinking to myself, "I survived another day." Mark was still busy counseling some sweet COF friends. Thankfully, I slept hard.
I awoke to the sound of my alarm clock calling me to another busy day. I sat down to spend some time in prayer and Bible study, thinking to myself, "God, why did you choose me to live this life and to be in this position? You know I'm a weakling... You might have chosen better..."
I opened up my devotional book, "Jesus Calling" and - no joke - this is what it said:
Come to Me when you are weak and weary. Rest snugly in My everlasting arms. I do not despise your weakness, My child. Actually, it draws Me closer to you, because weakness stirs up My compassion...
I have gifted you with fragility... Accept this gift as a sacred treasure: delicate, yet glowing with brilliant Light. Rather than struggling to disguise or deny your weakness, allow Me to bless you richly through it.
And then I looked down at the Scripture references listed at the bottom of the page and smiled. How great is my God! Isaiah 54:10 was one of the verses for the day - none other than my very favorite Scripture! It's so like God to do that for me!
" 'Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,' says the LORD, who has compassion on you."
Thank you, God, for meeting me where I am today. I am amazed by you again!