The first question that everyone asks when they see me is "How are you feeling?" They ask out of genuine concern and affection. The thing I have discovered is that I feel different each day, ranging from horribly sick to pretty well in a matter of a few days. It is a weird experience to feel like you are dying on a Thursday and then feel relatively normal by the following Tuesday; and then to have this cycle repeated every two weeks.
I have learned to answer the question for today.
Today I feel tired.
Today I feel better.
Today I feel awful.
Today I feel weak.
Today I feel much better.
Today I feel good.
I am learning that this is exactly how God wants me to live my life. Live it today. I don't know how many years or months I have to live, and neither does anyone else. But I know I have today. What will I do today? Waste it being angry or resentful? Waste it feeling regret? Waste it in a fit of worry? Or will I make the most of the day God has given me? Every day brings opportunities to love someone, to forgive someone, to encourage someone, to provide for someone, to help someone. Am I looking for those opportunities and taking advantage of them? Lord, please keep reminding me to live today. Help me to see the opportunities you give me.
"THIS is the day the Lord has made..." Psalm 118:24