A year and a half post chemotherapy, I think I am doing good. Physically I feel great. Emotionally I seem to have conquered cancer. Spiritually I have learned so much more about my God. But then, out of the blue, it starts again.
Week before last, for two days, I feel tired. My immediate thought: "It's back." Anxiety takes over. I feel sick. I talk myself down. "You didn't sleep well for two nights. That is why you feel tired. Relax."
Last week, my stomach hurts. My immediate thought: "It's back." I remind myself, "You JUST had a colonoscopy; your colon is healthy. Relax."
Today, I wake up with a headache behind my eye. My immediate thought: "It's back. It has metastasized to my brain." I laugh at myself! "Really?? Colon cancer doesn't normally go to the brain. It's just a headache. Relax."
It's tiring having a brain, and an imagination! I obviously need to find something better to do with mine!